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Post by Steve Dawson on Jul 27, 2009 10:38:53 GMT -5
Steve sighed softly. It was as if somehow even though his world was turned upside down, he just knew he could not live without her. He dried his tears, he could not help feeling somehow betrayed still. But yet it felt right to be with Lora as her boyfriend and not her brother. He loved her so much, but he was so confused. he lets her help him up and walked back inside with her.
He stood just inside the classroom sitting at the table with his back to the door. Even the kids could tell that something was wrong with "Uncle Steve." Lilyana kept crawling up into his lap, giving him hugs and kisses, trying to make him smile. He hugged the little girl tight then sat her down. "But baby, it does matter. Family doesn't keep stuff like that from each other." He whispered. That was what was hurting him the most. That his mother who had protected him all his life had hidden something so vital to him.
He wrapped his arms around her. For once he just wanted the kids to hurry up and go home. He needed to be alone with Lora. There was only one way he was going to be able to calm down and really be ok.
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Post by lora on Jul 27, 2009 11:12:09 GMT -5
Finally the last child went home and she walked over to Steve. She sits down beside of him and sighs alittle "are you ready to go home?" She looked at him and kisses his cheek and sighs alittle she helps him up and takes his hand as she locks up the daycare and walks to her car. "Did you bring your car or did you walk" she asks as she walks toward her black corvet.
She looks at him and sighs softly, she was so happy. She couldn't ever be upset or sad with him around. He made her smile by just smiling himself, she felt everything was falling into place. But she did have to explain to him why their mother had hidden this secret for so long form them. She had nothing to hide from him, she felt so bad that she hadn't told him when she first found out.
She sort of knew why because he wouldn't have stayed home. He would have been so upset he would have left and never came back. She couldn't have that, she wouldn't have been able to live this long without him in her life. She couldn't be happy with the fact that she had to hide her feelings but she had almost lost him and she had to tell him how she felt.
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Post by Steve Dawson on Jul 27, 2009 11:53:21 GMT -5
He lets her take his hand and help him up. He walks out with her to the parking lot. "I drove." He whispered. he got into his black trans-am. He put his head on the steering wheel, finally letting the tears come again. He had so much to do, he needed to find another place to live, he had exams to study for to finish his degree before graduation this week and they really needed to talk.
Steve smiled softly, feeling happy that they could be together now, but he was still hurting inside too. It was so wiered for everything to feel so right but yet so wrong. "I'll follow you home." He whispered. He started his engine and waited for her to pull out.
He drove after her to the place he wasn't sure if he could still call home. He felt out of place somewhat. He sat outside for a moment before getting out of the car. He walked inside and up to his room, knowing she would probably follow him. He lay on his bed, sighing softly.
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Post by lora on Jul 28, 2009 11:57:10 GMT -5
Lora drove home and got out quickly and ran upstairs to Steve. She sighed and walked into his room, well she knocked before she entered, "Steve babe are you okay" she walked into his room. She sat on his bed beside of him, she wasn't sure what to do. She kissed his cheek and cuddled beside of him as her right hand rested on his cheek as she ran it up and down his soft skin. She wished he would feel better, there was nothing she could do, she felt as if she had just killed him but saved him at the same time.
She kissed his cheek, she wished he would talk to her. She cuddled against him tightly "Steve I love you I always will as long as you'll have me" she whispers to him. She hugged her right arm around his waist and pulled herself tight to him. She had no idea how to cheer him up, but hoped she was doing a good job. She loved him and there was nothing she could do for him, except love him and try to help him as much as she could.
She kissed his cheek again as she started humming a soft lullaby, trying to get him to calm down. She knew that he had always loved her singing, but she didn't believe him but she always sang for him whenever he had wanted. It helped him sleep whenever he would have his dark nightmares.
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Post by Steve Dawson on Jul 28, 2009 12:33:59 GMT -5
He looked up at her as she walked into the room. He wraps his arms around her and buries his head in her neck. "I'll have you forever Lora if you really want me." He whispers softly. He reaches up and caresses her face. He gave himself over to complete happiness. He smiled as she kissed his cheek and began humming. "Sing for me angel." He whispered softly looking up into her eyes.
Steve didn't know how everything was going to end all he knew was that right now in this moment he was completely happy. He loved his Lora completely and nothing would ever change that. He held her tight against him. He kissed her passionately not letting her go.
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Post by lora on Jul 29, 2009 11:14:28 GMT -5
Lora got as close as she could to Steve as she softly sang to him as she played with his dark hair. She smiled as his eyes drooped shut, she always knew how to get him to calm down even when they were children. She softly started to drift to sleep too, as she made sure that he was going to have a peaceful sleep. She laid her head on his chest and fell asleep along with him, she couldn't help but smile as she slept.
She was so happy with Steve now and there was nothing that could tear them apart, she had everything she wanted, except for a child. But she knew that would come sometime later so she didn't bother with dwelling on that. She dreamed of what a fabulous life he and she will have, it was hard not to imagine everything absolutely perfect. She cuddled closer to him in her sleep and whispered "Steve baby I love you so much don't ever leave me". Suddenly she was woken up by a crash of thunder, a storm had started.
She got up and realized it was almost 2 in the morning, Steve was still sleeping soundly as she walked her way over to the window. She watched the rain, thunder and raging winds outside, thankful she was inside and safe with Steve, and she was thankful that he was sleeping soundly for once, usually he'd be having the nightmares again but she could get him to calm down that would be no problem to her. She turned back and watched the storm whirlwind outside as she smiled occasionally back at Steve as he slept.
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Post by Steve Dawson on Jul 30, 2009 7:44:40 GMT -5
Steve turned over his chest somehow bare and the covers all bunched around his waist. The dim light accented the scars on his muscular back. He whimpered at the cold bed, He called out in his sleep for his only love. "Lorali." He had shifted onto his back again still sleeping, his arms held out for her. There was a huge crash of thunder and lightning and it threw him right into his usual nightmare. His father standing in front of him with blood and venom dripping from his fangs as he kept beating Steve over and over again.
Steve sat straight up in bed screaming in pain as he felt every blow on his back, his face, his arms. He screamed and kept right on screaming, when the nightmare happened like this he believed it was happening again. On the howling wind he heard his father's evil voice. "You will never amount to anything! You're worthless and one day I'm going to kill you! He sat there screaming still asleep even though his eyes were wide open and wild looking.
The rain thundered on the roof and the lightning flashed. Every time the thunder crashed he flinched as if her were being beaten again, still screaming. His now muscular body broke out into a feverish sweat as his screams were mixed with whimpers of pain and screams of "Don't hurt me anymore Daddy!"
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Post by lora on Jul 30, 2009 8:40:11 GMT -5
Lora jumps up as she grabs ahold of him, she calmed him by trying to rock him back and forth and caress his hair. "Shhhh Steve Steve no one is going to hurt you anymore I'm here I'll never let anything happen to you", she held him tightly and sighed as she rocked him back and forth, it must have been another nightmare, she couldn't stand that he was having trouble sleeping, he hadn't had a good night's sleep in years.
She rocked him back and forth, she listened to his crying and ragged breathing. She rocked him as she sang to him and softly wiped his tears away "Steve I love you please calm down". She was about at tears herself but decided she would have to stay strong for her love, she couldn't break down infront of him to show that she was upset aswell, she was just scared for him. She loved him so much she couldn't stand seeing him in this state.
She sang to him until he finally stopped crying and started breathing regularly. She rested him on her chest, as she ran her fingers through his hair. She rocked him back and forth as she sang to him as she ran her fingers through his soft hair, she was so in love with Steve she had to do all she could for him. It hurt that he continued to have these nightmares over and over again. She wanted his dreams to be filled happiness and love with them and thoughts of their future, but she had to help him get over this and she would.
She looked down at him as he held her close to him "Steve sweetheart are you okay now"? She asked she loved him and couldn't stand to see him in pain, she ran her fingers up and down his back soothing him in everyway in she knew possible. She had done it all when he had been younger and he would have the same nightmares in the middle of the night. She kisses his forehead and smiles at him.
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Post by Steve Dawson on Jul 30, 2009 9:16:20 GMT -5
Steve just lay there curled upon her chest, shivering at the reality of the dream. "Why do I keep having that dream baby? It's like he's not dead but I know he's dead, I killed him!" He shivered holding her tight. She was the only thing in his world that mattered. Nothing else mattered anymore. "I'm ok but I don't think I can sleep again." He whispered laying there just holding her. He hadn't had a full night's sleep since he was 4.
He looked into her eyes. "I love you with all my heart Lora. I promise to make you happy, to be good enough for you. I promise to be everything you deserve." He whispered. He would not be the worthless person his father had always called him. He kissed her passionately over and over again. "I love you so much."
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Post by lora on Jul 30, 2009 10:26:07 GMT -5
She kissed him and smiles as he vows his love for her. "I love you too Steve sweetheart", she cuddles against him and turns on the tv and just to give them background noise, they curled under a thin sheet. She knew the tv would only count as background noise, they were too into each other to even pay attention to the tv or whatever happened to be on it. She was so happy to finally be in his arms the way she wanted to be.
She was so happy "Steve honey, do you want anything to eat for breakfast"? She wonders if he was hungry, he had to be. He hadn't ate anything the day before that she had seen at the daycare. She cuddled to his chest happily, hearing his heart beat fast and feeling his warm skin against hers as much as she could right now.
She was so happy she kissed him softly on the lips, she couldn't stand anything that put him in pain but she was so happy she made him happy. She was happy that she could soothe him from those savage nightmares that he was haunted by for so long. There was nothing she could do to make herself happier.
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